Pretending To Live.

Let's start with a song.

"'Cause you've found a way to go on for days, 

pretending to live.
But you are not ok, with all of that weight, 

you need to give up

Come now just let it go, 

let it fall down, let it all flow like
The water that's rushing in over your soul 'til there's nothing left
Won't you come to me and rest?"

"Rest"
by Nevertheless

Yeah it sucks.

I've talked about it all before.
The distance. The dreams. The days left.

Add to that the pressure of

senior year, graduation, college.

It's a lot.

Sometimes too much.

But I'm not here to write about that.


Not this time.

I was pointed to this verse by a great friend of mine a couple days ago.

Proverbs 17:22
"A joyful heart is good medicine,
    but a crushed spirit dries up the bones."

And a couple days ago, I took a mental shift.

And y'all.

 

I have so much to be joyful for.

 

I get to have the greatest friends in the world.
I get the ability to dream, to have crazy ambitions.
I get to spend the next 215 days in eager anticipation.
I get to take some of the craziest classes my senior year.
I get to graduate from one of the best schools out there.
I get to go college.
 

Sure.
There are times to be sad,
Times where it's too much.

Times where I wish I could visit my people.

But there are times to be joyful.
Times where I'm beyond happy.
Times where I can't WAIT to see my people.

 

What do I need to keep on pretending to live?

Joy.

 And I think I've found it.