Time Within Time

"I guess it comes down to a simple choice."

Time.



It's the most precious resource we have.

Yet...at the same time...the most wasted.



Time implies change.

Things decay. People grow.

Time doesn't leave anything alone.

It all changes.

Time
 ...

quite simply

...

ruins things.

Time is scary.

For that reason and others.

 The upcoming.

and

 The distant.

I've got college in less than a year.

Nine months to be exact.

I've got a relationship that could take six years to even get anywhere.
Seventy two months to be exact.

9 months is so close.
6 years is so far.

It's frightening.

Time.

It's the most precious resource we have.

Yet...at the same time...the most wasted.

The most wasted.

Time implies change.

Things decay. People grow.

Time doesn't leave anything alone.

It all changes.

But isn't that kind of exciting?

I look back and I'm glad to have grown.

Even from 3 years ago.

My awkward, 14 year old self.

 Thank goodness I've grown.

Time
 ...

quite simply

...

ruins things.
...
Yet
...
Time
...

quite simply
...
creates things.

 Time is exciting.

The upcoming.

and

 The distant.


I've got college in less than a year.

Nine months to be exact.

 I've got a relationship that could take six years to even get anywhere.

Seventy two months to be exact.

 The things I could do in 9 months.

The things I could do in 6 years.



It's exhilarating.

I guess it does come down to a simple choice.

It's time to

"Get busy living or get busy dying."

For the Rest of You.

How do I stay sane?

Hm. 

Better question.

Do I stay sane?

I think I've established that online friends

are just as important as real life friends.

If not.
Then I'm an awful writer, or you're flat-out blind.

Lately that's been my main focus.
The people that live hundreds to thousands of miles away.
I've been trying my hardest to keep those.

Why?

Because it takes hard work to keep those.

A good friend of mine told me this once

"Well. I think being in the situation that we are all are, we have an added appreciation and value for our friendships. They aren't just flippant and east convenience relationships. They require effort and time and dedication, perhaps more than in person, because of how difficult they actually are. It sucks to have all your friends live hundreds to thousands of miles away from you. It really sucks to miss people. But in order to maintain those friendships you have to learn how to be dedicated."

But I've been dedicated to a fault.

Dedicated to a point where I've forgotten my great friends here.
I haven't put effort into those friendships.

I haven't wanted to put effort into those friendships.

I've got one of the best youth groups, and youth directors, one could ask for.

I'm hurting myself not putting effort there.

Because let's be honest here.

These guys keep me sane.

These are the people I can do things that I can't do with the everyone else.

These are the people that involved in my life.

These are the people that bring me balance.

Do I stay sane?

I'll leave that up to you.

How do I stay sane?

By being with my friends here.

Thanks guys for keeping me sane.